Mother 

First of all I opened my eyes

Because I heard, world’s ‘Beautiful’

And awestruck I just kept looking

To the people around so wonderful…

A lady rocked me in her arms

Day in & out she fed me on

Others made funny gestures at me

And I’d giggle till sleep took on…

My days were pretty hectic

With sponge baths, massage & food

I made sure people noticed me

At “crying out loud” I was good…

The lady who was with me always

Had a special warmth in her touch

I felt safe whenever she held me

For sure I liked her ‘very much’…

She kept me safe from strangers

Yet few took me on as a treat

I felt scared and would start crying

And that would raise her heartbeat …

As soon as she would take me

I would calm and settle down by

Her heart would beat in harmony then

And would seem to me as lullaby…

I used to speak a GODLY language

Which only she knew what meant

I never walked around like the ‘Mob’

But soon such royalty out went…

She taught me how to say ‘MAA’

And helped me up to walk

I soon started to move around

Like commoners I could talk…

She still understood me always

And cared for me as well

I soon understood my world around

And people with whom I’d gel…

Over the years lot changed

But she still remains the same

People call & know her in many ways

But for me “MOTHER” is her name. 

SHAHISM....

aLL AGAIN...

let us meet again as strangers

not knowing what we are

and share a glass of wine under moon

talking about the stars.

then meet again one day

calling it a co incidence

and exchange phone numbers

in case of mere remembrance.

as i reach home i text u

'hi dear this is ...me'

my inbox shows 'hi i am me too'

and i write back 'how funny :D'

texting turns into calling

and calling runs out all night

and then on silly matters

every now and then we fight.

meeting again we start to share

our hobbies, likes and past

and soon the thought comes across

that together we can last.

i start loving u all over again

and u start hiding the same

we both feel something special

but no one speaks that name.

and one day after gathering guts

i kneel down nd propose

u start laughing out loud

i am joking u suppose.

yet again i try with a straight face

my eyes filled up with hope

yo ask me 'will u ever leave me'

i hug u tight and say 'nope'

we start sketching walls of future

with the shades of love we have

and kissing with the joy of it

to live it soon is all we crave.

there come a few rough patch

but we fix them out quite well

and promise to stay side by side

yet with passion we quarrel.

then if some day one of us feels

the magic of love is gone

we know what we are to do then

we hug smiling don't mourn.

we stop seeing each other

for some time, so we remain

and meet one day just by chance

to fall in love all over again.

so we meet again as strangers

not knowing what we are

and share a glass of wine under moon

talking about the stars.

Arz kiya hai

"ZINDAGI KI HAR TAMANNA RAB SUNA KARTA NAHIN
CHAHTON KI BAARISHON MAIN DIL DUA KARTA YEHI
RAB SUNEY IK BAAR CHAHAT KO MILA DE ISHQ SE
TAB TO HOTA RAB NAI TOH RAB HUA KARTA NAHI..."

Why do I love you…?

I hate myself, why I love you

When you don’t even care…

And no matter how much I try

For you I'll always care.

I fight with you all while

And pull your leg ‘MORON’

Just so that, you don’t feel

To some hope I’m holding on…

I don’t know why you are so scared

To be loved by someone you do

There can’t be anyone better

You may deny, knowing it’s true…

When I try to tame my heart

You call and ask what’s wrong

And when I try to hide it

You play my favourite song…

When I am happy you are happy

When I feel low you are sad

When you talk to me I am blushing

When you message me, I am glad…

There is so much, to tell you

But I just hold myself back

Because when I do, you feel uneasy

So I am bound to sway off track…

You changed my life when you came

And then you changed on your own

First you took my heart with you

Then turned down cold like stone…

You know it all I am so sure

But unlike you pretend so…

I want to hold you by my side

And you want to let me go???

I still hate myself, why I love you

When you don’t even care

No matter how much time passes

Even if I try, with you I'll always bear…

UNTIL ONE DAY…

 

When I first saw her …

She was like any other girl

Simple, sweet, sober and straight

Always happy in a rhythmic mood

Until one day; I got into her life…

She was as pretty…

As destiny could have made

And she spread life on the go

She had it all to charm someone

Until one day; I got into her life…

Her presence I noticed

Charm of her beauty worked

I was pulled and I wandered

In her; fragrant, lucid morn...

Until one day; I got into her life…

We met, and met and again we did

It seemed we could never be alone

I waited for her and only her, and

She waited for me and only me...

Until one day; I got into her life…

A bond was born between the two

It was growing, I know she knew

But she never backed off or did I

I kept moving closer I don’t deny...

Until one day; I got into her life…

We had a relation no names at all

All knew it was there but couldn't call

I loved her presence as close I could

She loved me, loved me and loved me by…

Until one day; I got into her life…

When she was there around me

I lost my senses and went weird

Fumbled for words, walked un-steered

My hear pumped faster than usually it did

Until one day; I got into her life…

We knew each other as if were meant to

& to the extent we could emit each other

No wonder why we were so close!

But soon started drifting apart as ones

That I almost, was into her life...

Too much attraction became repulse

We strived to hold on to each other’s hand

But all our attempts appeared paltry

We were back to where we had started off

That day I was finally into her life...

We started having issues, unsettled at all

With differences, doubts & questions to toll

Things got bitter as time breezed past

We separated as singles all looked aghast

It seemed as if I was never in her life

But actually now, I was out of her life....

I WANT TO BE FREE

I want u back in my life

But then; I think

Some things might not change

The way I have been strange…

I love I care

I’ve always been there

But then it seems to me

I want my space; I want to be free

You might get it, I know

But then there is something,

Which stops me then…

I want you too, can’t promise a den

My prerogative has changed

I don’t want to, but I think

You’ll suffocate with me

And curse the destiny...

I am in two frames of mind

One to get u other to resign

But then; I feel

Waiting for u has more zeal

I am trying to find out

The original me

But then; I struggle

All of this seems like an ordeal…

To fight with myself

I need someone like you

But then I don’t expect

It’s in mere retrospect

You have shown me paths

To walk on and on

To look for others need

To love, be caring off greed...

You have taught me

The meaning of smile...

The meaning of faith respect & clove

The meaning of shaken but everlasting love

The shades of grey might

Turn me down and give bleak sight

But still it can never erode

Memos of the time we together strode

I love u more than anyone

Till ma last breath I care

But then; it seems to me

I need my space; I want to be free...